
This is an interesting post for Blogmas. It’s not very festive and I don’t know if it’s going to end up positive. I mean, it probably will end up positive, because that is my default, but who can say?
It seems appropriate, though. What I’m about to write about is what has been on my mind lately and this blog has always sort of been about vomiting what’s on my mind onto the internet. Blogmas wouldn’t be Blogmas without me writing a few posts that are weirdly and specifically personal.
I feel like I’ve recently gotten on a real wellness kick, without actually doing anything, during what is really the worst time of year. I’ve been thinking and talking a lot about my sleep hygiene. Things like getting into my bed earlier, putting screens away an hour before bed (which I’m terrible at), building a nighttime routine. I’ve also been thinking – and talking – a lot about paying attention to how I’m nourishing myself. Maybe tracking my food and how I feel as a result for a bit.
This all sounds good, right?
But I’m also catching myself feeling guilty when I don’t work out. (Which, honestly, I do need to do more, for my strength and for my sanity and for my sleep. The guilt just doesn’t help.) I’m catching myself feeling guilty any time I have a drink or eat pizza for the third week in a row. And all that guilt and self-flagellation is making my wellness worse because I just reach this point of paralysis and stress where I let my current habits completely take over.
So why am I putting myself through this at notably one of the most stressful times of the year? (So they say, anyway. I honestly find the holidays full, but not that stressful. Which I know may not be normal.)
I’m just ready to feel like myself again.
We worked on Riverona for so long, which took over a lot of my life. And then I travelled in October and have basically been sick since I got back into the country. And, quite honestly, I’m sick of feeling shitty.
I’m ready to start feeling good. And more importantly, feeling like me.
So that’s what Wellness Wednesdays are going to look like for the foreseeable future. Wanna join?






